Being Uneasy

As I talked about (2 posts down or so), lately I have been wondering how to get back to my old outgoing self, while maintaining Melanie. Well, it’s becoming an issue for me now. Granted, not a HUGE issue, but it could get worse. I still do my normal shopping at Target 1-2 times a week. Before you yell at me, I know about target donating to an anti-gay rights politician, and I get why I shouldn’t shop there. Anyway, I have no issue, or very little of an issue shopping there, BUT, I really need to go to Ulta (a cosmetics shop like right next door), and I just can’t seem to do it. I don’t know why, I tell myself; “self, you need to get get some foundation and warmth (blush for bare minerals), and as far as I know only Ulta in the area carries it. So go kid, go!” Well, the more I dwell on it, the more I tell myself “tomorrow” I will go tomorrow. This has been going on since Monday or so. I told my wife while taking her to work today, and she said we could go together tonight after work. I told her I feel so much more comfortable going places with her, but I’m not sure why. She said; “it’s because if anyone looks at you weird, I just ‘mean-mug’ them.”

She’s so good to me 😀

Anyway, I need to figure this out… guess it’s time to see the therapist again.


Listening to-Nothing I have a headache


Down with Prop 8!

As some of you may know Prop 8 was deemed unconstitutional by a federal judge yesterday, and that is a wonderful thing. BUT the fight continues. Everyone who supports gay marriage please continue to speak up, and make your voices heard, this is an important human AND civil rights issue.